lamentations

Well...I'm actually updating this in a timely manner. It's a miracle, right?

There are some good things:

The eclipse was amazing.

Vacation Dick made several appearances on my travels.

The event I hosted over the weekend went very well, and I got a ton of positive feedback.

 

It's good to focus on the positive, right?

 

But it's not all sunshine and roses.

I got rear-ended (not a sexual euphemism this time) on my way to the event, and my new car sustained some damage. I'm okay--and that should be on the positive list above, but it's going to be a pain in the ass to deal with. Plus the $1000 deductible (because it was a hit and run, which adds to the uncontrollable rage I'm feeling about it) at a time that happens to coincide with a couple of very bad months in the publishing department is not great.

Vacation Dick shriveled up when I got home, naturally.

So, back to the drawing board with FWBs. Two potentials I was talking to in the past two months have ghosted me, so that's fun. Another is going through a huge work project and won't have a day off (including weekends) for the foreseeable future.

And...that brings me to a guy I've spoken to off and on for a few months. Met him on Fet, and he's local and poly. Yay! There aren't too many local poly guys. We'd talked about meeting up when I got back from this trip.

Then today, I'm scrolling Fet and see a pic he's posted. 

A full frontal, if you get my drift.

And...

Well, he's packing. I mean, it's seriously impressive. If I didn't have a super shallow cervix I'd be all about that. But I know from vast experience that it ain't gonna fit.

And it will likely be uncomfortable for both of us. 

As I said, lots of personal experience in this department. 

I expressed my doubts, and he said it would still be fun to try.

Well, maybe I will. I have no other prospects. But, damn. It ain't gonna fit.